Heartbroken

Photo taken October 1974

My grandfather and I

I was 3 years old

My grandfather passed away October 21st 2009 due to complications from Alzheimer's Disease. The last four years have been a long and terrible journey and I am happy for him that it is over. He died peacefully surrounded by his beautiful children, staring into the face of my grandmother who has stood by his side for 65 years.

I wanted him to be released from his suffering so badly but I just can't believe that he is gone from my life and I am heartbroken. I didn't know it was going to hurt this much. I'm not quite sure how to get through it. But I am blessed to have my superman by my side and a HUGE support system in my family, co workers and friends. They have been so wonderful.
I am also thankful for the bonding my mom and I have done over the past few weeks. I feel closer to her now than I have in my life.

I really don't know what to say, my grief is too new and the pain is too much to come up with anything meaningful right now. I just know that I miss him and I love him. He was a wonderful father to me and to IZ. I was priviledged to have the relationship with him that I did. No granddaughter could have asked for better.

I love you, Grandpa. I miss you. I love you....I love you.